Thursday, September 3, 2015

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TASTE AND SEE
Mouth-watering promise, thin, wafer like
Fleeting, yet satisfying, cloud like
Seemingly angelic words, emit light
Or light emitting words, when however
A dream embodies its way in, ever
Never allude to doubt, for surely
Stars are alive. watching, merely
Holding words the weight of wisdom
Yet of ages still to come
That day, that night, that grasp of intervening
Heart hears, mind sears, reeling
On the eons of moonbeams, whirling
Set in proscribed readiness gear
Guardian Faith admonish fear
“Taste and see that the Lord is good”
And yes, its all good,
For a pirouette into constancy,
Now pivots this soul.
© gillena cox


Written for the prompt
Midweek Motif ~ Watershed Moments


My husband whom i loved dearly, left, after seven years of marriage, on the pretext of going away to further his studies. Left me with a broken heart, two adorable children and yes the feeling that he's coming back soon everything will be alright. This feeling phased into a reality of abandonment, fear and disillusion.
Hmm, all that holy water in the font, (i'm Catholic), and i would leave church, still feeling angry; till one very early dawn (1995), i experienced a wide awake, dream like experience, when a voice spoke to me, in a beam of light. That, somehow, transformed me into an enduring faith filled person. Sorry no turning back; come what may.
Though still married, i am living alone, and loving my lonesome life. My children are happily grown, and i'm now a grandmother of a lovely little two-going-on-three-year old girl. I feel blessed, even on the worst of days.

29 comments:

  1. Hugs and blessing to you. You deserve a lot better than him....Good riddance !

    Don't blame yourself...that type prey on the vulnerable and good....you have to be of the same ilk to detect them. I hope you have not been lonely. You can have your marriage annulled if your husband had no intention of honouring his marriage vows at the time of marriage. According to the Church if that is the situation it was not real in the spirit of what a marriage is supposed to be.

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    1. Rall, ours was a civil marriage, we were not married in the catholic church, though i remain Catholic, yet, all those years of pining, and I always believed he was my soul mate , so i never entertained the thought of another husband.

      Thanks for stopping over to read mine Rall.

      Much love...

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  2. How well you have survived and coped with such betrayal and disappointment. What an example you set for those who also may be disappointed in their relationships.

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    1. What a beautiful experience! Not the cruel betrayal but the assurance you received.

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    2. Indeed Rosemary indeed

      Much love...

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  3. Thank you for sharing your faith story. When those things happen, like abandonment or anything that shakes our world it also shakes our faith, but you had a wonderful assurance given you there.

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    1. Thank you X,
      I'm happy you dropped in to read mine

      Much love...

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  4. Thanks for dropping in to read mine Robin

    Through all my despondence, i never neglected my in laws, so my children grew up bonding with cousins and their grand parents . knowing they had a father even though he was an absent father

    For sure that watershed moment helped to shape my todays; for life can be cruel to a single (although married and wanting to stay married woman). Every one has an opinion of who you should be or what you should be. Its tough

    much love...

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  5. This is so heartbreaking.. hugs .. I m glad you were able to move on.. you deserve so much better! You are a strong and beautiful woman who has the power to inspire millions! These are my favorite lines:

    A dream embodies its way in, ever
    Never allude to doubt, for surely
    Stars are alive.

    Beautifully executed!
    Lots of love,
    Sanaa

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  6. Thanks for dropping in to read mine Sanaa

    Much love...

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  7. I was a single mom, too, who raised four children alone, Gillena, so your story touches my heart. I know how hard it is. I LOVE the story of that faith-filled moment, and how it transformed all that came after. Thank you for sharing it with us.

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    1. Sherry I'm happy you dropped in to read mine. Thanks for the empathy

      Much love...

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  8. Gillena, thank you for sharing your story. You really are a strong person for being able to move on and make yourself a successful life despite your early heartbreak. I am also glad that your faith today sustains you and that today you have much joy!

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    1. im happy you dropped in to read mine Mary

      much love...

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  9. Flowing with emotion! I see the reach for the dream and then becoming one's own. I can't decipher all your images despite your informative note, but the roller-coaster swept me along with it, and I was glad to find myself at the end. I've never raised children so I have no-one to call me grandmother, but teaching gave me a different kind of children and renewed dreams with which 'll be content.

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    1. Luv the fact that you feel blessed and grateful for the gift of mentoring as a teacher. Luv your contentment.
      Thank you for your appreciation of my poem

      Much love...

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  10. Hugs Gillena...thanks for sharing your story...."Guardian Faith admonish fear / “Taste and see that the Lord is good”...I believe this too.....

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    1. Happy you dropped in to read mine Sumana

      Much love...

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  11. A very powerful story in your poem.

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    1. Happy you dropped in to read mine GL

      Much love...

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  12. There is much to be learned about you here ~ all good.

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    1. Happy you dropped in to read mine Helen

      Much love...

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  13. There is that out of control spinning where the heart and the mind convince us something is wrong with us. Then there is that beautiful fluid pirouette (that you beautifully define) where our dance is pure joy. Glad for your happiness :)

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    1. Thank you for your appreciation Leslie

      Much love...

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  14. Stars are alive. watching, merely
    Holding words the weight of wisdom
    Yet of ages still to come


    I LOVE this portion and your note breaks my heart...and also, causes it to soar for you're truly happy. Much love. ♥

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  15. A really heartfelt piece, Gillena, which shows your strength of spirit. I think the real loser is your husband who lost so much when he abandoned you. Now you enjoy the special relationship with your children and grandchild.

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    1. Happy you dropped in Nicholas

      much love...

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  16. Reading this for second time.. and it makes my heart churn all the lot more..💜 Big hugs to you.

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